I have never felt like a accomplished writer, photographer, or Artist in General. I always had felt like i was struggling to create something with meaning, to bring attention to something, but my work always seemed lacking. But as i am nearly 32/36 done with my 365 i am just now having small realization about myself as a artist. I have always been someone who wanted to help others, growing up i was taught you can never help someone to much; Throughout school i often gave away my lunch, brought food for people, gave people rides, and lent friends my homework because i had an honest feeling of joy when i helped them. Even when i graduated i started volunteering 840 hours a year and havnt stopped yet, (I didnt make the goal this year sadly:() all while working 1-2-3 jobs at a time.
In some way, in the beginning of this project i thought i may be able to help someone. I thought in some way i may be able to inspire someone, and to help them. I was so incredibly inspired people such as David Talley, Brooke Shaden, Sarah Ann Loreth, and Joel Robinson that i wanted to inspire others as well. I often thought about how i could inspire others and move them to action! And not until 250(ish) days inn i realized i was not necessarily helping others out, i was finally helping myself. I was so focused on helping others that i had not learned how to take care of myself. And in the past 5 months i have started thinking about what inspires me, not what i thought inspired others. This was a moment i had not foreseen, and it led me to a quite a Few realizations that have helped me tremendously. It led me to create some new Goals i hope to accomplish in the next year.
1. Quit My day job.
Am i really talented enough to quit my day job? Probably not, BUT! I think so! I know i am still learning how to create, work with clients and build a brand that is my own, but all i can think about is becoming a full time artist, in the midst of working in a High Stress job working with customers, i know this effects me in a negative way.
2. Get to the point of being Dept Free.
I have a car i still make payments on, and have a small bit of Credit Debt for when i was in a car accident and fixing my camera. Once I am Dept free i can get past all the points of worry when it comes to the financial side of things.
3. Create For Myself.
Whenever i have created a photo that can convey something close to me it feels like a burden has been lifted off my shoulders, and in retrospect, the photos i create for myself are always the once that are received the best from everyone else.
4. Learn how to create Work that Appeals to a Larger Audience
I have been focusing on this the most lately, i love shooting weddings and engagement sessions but i want to bring a creative flare to them! This aspect of it has got me quite a bit of work, but am have nearly no work during the winter, what this means to me is that i need to get more work for summer and create more since this is the opportune time.
5. Be Happy with being a Artist.
Be happy to create, be happy i have the Opportunity to create, that i have the resources, and that i want to create, Just to be happy.
That is it for now. I know there are provably numerous errors and i leave you on the famous words of Icona Pop, " I dont Care."
